It sometimes comes out of nowhere. Unseen, at the most seemingly random moments. The darkness of shame, failure, bitterness, heartbreak emerge. It seems to resists all goodness and turns the past into an indictment against the future. It spins the appearances of others into accusations. It takes the good in life and poisons it with doubt and jealousy. It belittles obedience to God as some trite hope in a fairy tale as it heaps truckloads of anger and sorrow onto any feeling of hope and love.......
Yet....a whisper, a flicker of light, a calling that cannot be refused. The darkness screams that it is a dirty trick, heaps more accusations, more anger, more disappointment. The light grows faint but persists, calls...steady as a heartbeat.
Why the darkness God? Why such resistance? Why such hopelessness?
"because I love you...without the darkness you would not understand the chasm, you would not understand the loneliness, you would become dependent on others...in short you wouldn't know my love."
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