WHY?

12/5/2014

Kicking and Screaming...not that there is any real relevance to the movie, except for that's how I would describe my life as a believer.  Most of my life I've had this very hot and cold relationship with the almighty.  There are days when I feel God and I are hand in hand and others when I question the actual existence.  Yet God still shows up in all kinds of crazy ways.


3 years ago I started getting a daily text from a man I did not know and had never met.   It was a verse and a short description and always signed, "God loves you! So do I! Make it a great day!".  I thought it was a nice gesture, yet never really expected it to continue.  I figured, of course operating out of my own failures and sin, that it would eventually stop...it never did and has continued to this day.  Every single day, at some point in the morning, the word of God was sent to me with a reminder of God's love and the faithful love of an unknown man.  He has never failed or missed...in over 3 years. 


One of the ways God has continued to speak to me has been through reading his word.  I have a one year plan in the Bible my wife gave to me 23 years ago.  There were several years when I was diligent in reading everyday.  It was a blessing and always forced me to deal with scripture.  Many times it was a struggle and yet there always was a challenge, an encouragement and a deeper understanding of God. Yet my flesh eventually won out and I stopped consistently reading.  A couple of months ago, I started reading again...a couple of weeks ago  God spoke to me very clearly..."you are to do this everyday and share your thoughts".  I resisted...I thought of every reason and excuse as to why that would be a bad idea, most prominent was "who am I to do this?"   I thought of my own sin and hypocrisy and yet again God said "do it". 


So 3 days ago I began.  Kicking and Screaming but I obeyed.  I do not know if this will benefit anyone.  It is not for me to analyze or rationalize.  I do know that out of this obedience God has begun to reveal more and with that there has existed an even greater struggle.  Yet it is in this struggle that I am finding a peace which I really can't define.

Who knows where this will go or what God will do...its not for me, Thank GOD, to decide.  So in the words of my unknown friend....


God loves you! So do I! Make it a great day!