“If you stay intent and your ability warrants it, you will eventually reach the top of the mountain.”
JEREMIAH 20-22
JOURNAL
It is amazing how easily life can become formulaic, especially when we desperately want to feel in control. We develop routines, establish disciplines, set goals, and convince ourselves that if we consistently do the right things, we can somehow guarantee the outcomes we desire. There is comfort in formulas because they give us a sense of predictability. But I am beginning to realize that even in my relationship with God, I can fall into this same trap. Read Scripture, pray, meditate, exercise, serve others, and repeat. Somewhere along the way, these wonderful practices can become less about knowing God and more about trying to create a life where everything works out the way I want. But a formula is not a relationship, and God is not an outcome that can be produced by following the right steps.
For years, 2 Timothy 1:7 has been foundational to how I approach life. Power, love, and self-discipline have shaped my understanding of who I want to become and how I want to influence others. Yet I wonder if I sometimes turn even these gifts into another formula for success. The most important part of that verse may be the part I too easily overlook: "For the Spirit God gave us." These qualities are not simply things I must manufacture through greater effort. They are expressions of God's Spirit working within me. Discipline is not intended to give me control over life but to help me remain connected to God. Prayer is not a means of securing a desired outcome but an opportunity for communion with Him. Scripture is not simply an instruction manual for success but a way of coming to know the One who created me.
John Wooden's words about remaining intent and reaching the top of the mountain resonate deeply with me. I believe wholeheartedly in the importance of effort, perseverance, and trusting the process. It is the very foundation of what I want Deserve Victory to represent. But there is a difference between committing to the process and believing the process guarantees the outcome. I can prepare, work, love, and serve with everything I have, but I cannot control what tomorrow brings. Perhaps the real purpose of the climb is not reaching the summit but becoming the person God intends me to be along the way. Jeremiah reminds us to do what is just and right, while Peter encourages us to continually grow in goodness, self-control, perseverance, and love. These are not boxes to check on a spiritual scorecard. They are the natural expressions of a life lived in relationship with God.
This brings me back to the idea of being in tune with God. A musician must continually listen and adjust to remain in tune, and perhaps my spiritual life should be approached the same way. Not as another task to complete, but as an ongoing relationship requiring attention, humility, and surrender. I can become so consumed with doing everything correctly that I forget simply to be present with God. And when uncertainty or anxiety appears, I sometimes find myself searching for what I have done wrong, as though following the right formula should have prevented those feelings in the first place. But faith is not about eliminating uncertainty. It is about trusting God in the midst of it.
I don't want to become less disciplined or intentional. I want those disciplines to have a deeper purpose. I want to begin each day not simply asking what I need to accomplish, but how I can be more aware of God's presence and allow His power, love, and discipline to flow through me into the lives of others. I want to pursue excellence without demanding perfection, work diligently without becoming attached to results, and embrace each day without trying to control tomorrow. Perhaps the greatest freedom comes when I finally understand that God is not asking me to master a formula that gives me control over my life. He is inviting me into a relationship that frees me from needing that control in the first place. My responsibility is to remain faithful to the process, love others, and make the most of the opportunities before me. The outcomes belong to Him. And perhaps the greatest gift was never reaching the top of the mountain, but learning to walk with God every step of the way.